other side of me....

24/08/08

6:15am

i suddenly wake up with a tears in my eyes. i dont know how to explain what i feel that morning. its like i feel so empty inside. i cant feel any emotion.. Im like a robot that do what is programed to do. I decided to take a bath, thinking that it will erase the emaotion that i feel inside, but the icy cold water that splash all over my body has no effect. so i hurriedly finish my bath and do my daily routine.

25/08/08

5:30am

I was so excited because im going to the office.. to work. Thinking that the emptiness will be gone due to the things that i will do that day. and Im succesfully overcome it. I forgot that feeling and for a meantime i feel so warm, i feel the life inside me.

today.....

I realize that im wrong i still feel that feeling. I try to think and think what is missing in my life. why im not happy... to tell you the trth I still dont know the asnwer...... I wish God will appear right now and tell me my purpose in life.