July 9 2009

Ever heard of the song with a line of "we have the right love at the wrong time"?.. at first i dont believed in this line. coz whe you love there is no right time or place you just fall in love and thats when the magic start...
May 2009, i've never though that i will fall in love so easily, I just saw him sitting in export department and he cough my eyes, and everything then feels like heaven. and i told myself that he will be my friend. He became my smoke buddies and lunch mate.. from that we chat a lot talking non sence thing, ideas, inspiration, until one day we talked about more serius thing. Love, life, and dreans of having a family. We decided to continue our talk in a bar along makati ave. to cut the story short we found out that we like each other more than the friendship that we have already.
The Ff day we set the rules for our "relationship", we need this rules to continue our forbiden love, yes its forbiden coz he already have someone and they living together for almost 3 years now. I know its wrong but what should i do, i loves him so much and i will do anything, anything for him. i know that he also love me, and i feel his pain. i dont want hi to suffer with our stuation, so i always adjust in everything and i know he also adjust so that we will not cought.
July, our communication become very seldom. and i dont have any idea whats happening to him, to our relationship, the only reason that i still not giving up is because of his promise, that I have to hold on.. wait for the right time, he promise that he will make a way for us. we wish that everything go easy as plan, but i know it will not, who i am to break them apart, i know that our relationship are not that strong compare to the relationship that they have.
I know that time will come that this will end, and honestly.... i dont know if i can take it. Now... im still sticking to hs promise that we will have our own time. and i will still hold on until he's the one who would tell that i should let him go....

Listening to Hold On by Shamrock